Hewo hewo my darlings! How have you been? Did you get that promotion yet? (joking heehee, (,; ⩌ ;,) )

Wowee,, "its been one of those days",, do you know what comes to mind whenever i think that? A clip of a cutscene from Hotel Mario where Mario just happens to repeat that one line.
And for good reason,, (╥ᆺ╥;) i was planning to go star-gazing tonight, but i ended up a bit too emotionally drainned to be in the mood to go so instead ill delay that to another day of this week. Letme tell you about my morning.. Spoiler alert: i was chased down by a grumpy middle aged man.

I was taking Mei-Mei on a walk, and as always, i would keep a close eye on her to make sure she doesn't go too far off aswell to cus i know that not too long after we exit home she starts to do her needs.
Whenever i spot her urinating i *always* spray the whole thing with water afterwards, but there was a momment in which she needed to stop for a momment to do that but she didn't actually leave anything behind. Even though this is a common thing for her i do always lean forward to make sure my sight isn't deceiving me, but there literally wasn't anything left to clean.
(⇀‸↼‶) And here's when things start going downhill, not too long after that i realize that a 50 something dude is screaming and running towards me. All to scold me and accuse me of "Letting my dog piss all over the store's wall".

The middle-aged: ⁽⁽(੭ꐦ •̀Д•́ )੭*⁾⁾ "YOU!! YOU CAN'T DO THAT!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU? YOU CAN'T LET YOUR F♥︎♥︎♥︎♥︎♥︎♥︎♥︎ DOG PISS ALL OVER MY STORE HAVE SOME RESPECT!!!"

Me: (ᵕó_ò) "But that can't be it, I cleaned the whole thing and i didn't see her peeing on any wall.."

The middle-aged: ლ(ಠ益ಠლ) "WHAT DO YOU MEAN?! I LITERALLY SAW YOU JUST NOW!!".

^ Remember that last statement for later.

As i was trying to assimilate the chaotic and specially intrusing situation i got myself into, I was confused to how could this have happened, but because of how confident the man said that "he saw me", i took that sentence as a fact. Not to mention that I was so scared i didn't want for things to scalate any further, so with the eyes of everyone nearby gazing me, i apologized and the man would leave all furious while mumbling things about me..

Right then, my only desire was to go home and have somewhere private to cry, my social anxiety is already bad, so it certainly wasn't any pretty to be scolded like that in public.. But i wasn't anywhere near done with the walk with Mei-Mei, so i did an effort to put myself together just so she could have a proper walk.
In the way back,, i even took a different path home because i was scared of getting scolded again.. Everything went so quick that my mind could barely recall the middle-aged man saying:

The middle-aged: ⁽⁽(੭ꐦ •̀Д•́ )੭*⁾⁾ "And DON'T you DARE WALK NEAR MY STORE WITH YOUR DOG AGAIN!!!"

Then again, i wasn't sure if he actually said that or not,, on momments of high tension, adjacent memories become very blurry for me, so i couldn't even tell where how and when did Mei-Mei take her needs,, "Maybe my hair was blocking my sight and i missed it?" is what i was starting to believe. (っ╥﹏╥ς) So i was comitted to apology again if i were to get stopped by the same man some other day, because i for certain would never want to do such a thing on purpose and nor do i want to be a careless owner!! But i didn't want to risk for that to also be today,, so that's why i took another path to reach home cus my heart couldn't take a second blow...

So after i finally got home, .·°՞(ᗒ□ᗕ)՞°·. i felt so so tired and so miserable, when my fight or flight senses calmed down i started to digest the whole aftermath of that event all at once.. i tried to engage full coping mechanism: Playing Minecraft while watching some anime, but it was as if my whole body was sore that it was hard to cheer up ૮(◞ ‸ ◟ )ა..

But then,, against all the odds, the tables turned later at the noon ( ˶°ㅁ°).
As it just so happens, my mom knows that very same middle aged dude because they used to go to the same gym and they know eachother, so after my mom went to the store from where the chaos came from, she then came to me to inform me that in behalf of the clerk, that they sincerely apologize, for it just so happens that somehow they confirmed it wasn't Mei-Mei who made the mess.

Apparently, its becoming increasingly common for careless dog owners to leave the surroundings dirty without cleanning them, so the store owners along the middle aged man who screamed at me are dealing often with that.
But in this care they were barking at the wrong tree (heehee) and they awknologed their mistake. I asked my mom: "Well then, why did he then say that 'he saw me' do it?" And my mom essentially explainned that the man was having a bad day and that he wrongfully jumped to conclussions because he was in a heat.

Me: (⸝⸝⩌ ⤙ ⩌⸝⸝) "Oh, so he lied to win the argument, how neat."

You know what though,, i genuenly don't like conflicts at all, so i don't care what happened as long as i don't get jumpscared by a stranger to scream at me and chase me arround 30 meters from where his store was, so i accepted the apology, geez I just want to go on with my day and try to enjoy life. And mind you though that this whole thing has unlocked a new paranoia for me, from now on ill always spray the pavement with water everytime mei-mei stops just in case someone's watching because i really don't wanna risk it again (っ- ‸ - ς).

Oh dear,, so yeah,, i am at the very least reliaved that i won't have to take a different route with my walk with Mei-Mei from now on just from the fear,, do you know what comes to mind from all of this? this fragment of past yesterday's blog entry:

This world in the other hand, is a dystopia with lots of violence to spare, massive rage, endless problems, scarce solutions, cruel wars, untrustworthy leaders, scummy and greedy CEOs, soulless people that have no regarding for the physical safety of others, users from the internet giving death threats to everyone like halloween candy, expressing hate on people with particullar labels such as furries or transgender people, people with no shame that stomp bully or/and mock those that are too different from the social standard (i've particullarly been a victim of this one..).

Yeah,, that pretty much re-explains why do i always feel so uneasy when im outside,,

Oh welp,, to finish up today's entry with a bit of a more positive side note, tommorrow there's a full solar eclipse taking place in Spain! ヽ(°〇°)ﾉ The sun and the moon will have a momment to smoochie ( ˘ ³˘)♥ eachother in the sky and it will be nearly as dim as it is during nighttime! I'm looking forward to talk about it tommorrow, thanks a super lot for sticking arround dear reader ( =＾ω＾) until next time!

❤︎ Ashley.